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Name: Carrie
Country: United States
State: Georgia
Metro: Savannah
Birthday: 12/9/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: I like art and music, even though I'm not musically talented in the least. I also like puppies. Meeting new people is always an awesome adventure for me.
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Expertise: I'm pretty good at math and I can give a really good massage. That's an odd combination. I really like doing portraits of people. I have finally gotten to the point where the drawing actually looks like the person.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  cheeseandahalf2
Member Since:
4/19/2004
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| I'm totally ridiculous. I have two dates tomorrow, one for lunch and another for dinner, and I'm leaving to visit my boy in Texas for spring break on Thursday. I would so just keep the one in Texas if he believed in long-distance relationships. He actually tells me that I should find someone else to date, so that's what I'm doing. There's also a fourth guy that likes me, but he hasn't asked me out on a date. That's probably a good thing... I don't want to make things too complicated. This is all good and fun, but I really hope I don't end up hurting anybody. There's nothing serious yet, but we'll see what happens. I'm going to take things very slow, perhaps even agonizingly slow. I really want a serious relationship, but the last thing I want to do is jump into one.
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| Nobody has time anymore, including myself. I guess that's what happens as you get older and life just continues to get more and more complicated. I'm just ready for a little bit of a break; some time where I can relax and not have to dig someone else out of the shit they got themselves into. I'm supposed to be relaxing right now because it is my winter break, but I just haven't had a chance to. I'm not ready for the next quarter to start. I'm terrified of life painting, even though I know I'll do well. I also really have no idea how to use water colors correctly, so my water based media class isn't going to be fantastic either. Whatever... I know I'll get through it and my projects will be fine, but I'm just a little tired of this pattern. I don't do any artwork for fun. It's all for assignments. I can't think of anything on my own. I haven't been feeling very good about my work lately. I'm surrounded by some very talented people and there's no way I could ever compete with them. Why the hell am I in art school? I could have done anything, and I chose the field in which you have the least chance of actually being successful.
My family is coming to see me for Christmas. It is going to be a very irritating experience. Don't get me wrong... I love them, but I know they're going to feel a little awkward in my house. I live in a house full of art students!! There are strange pictures all over the walls, odd books, obscure little things everywhere, and I'm afraid I may have to hide most of it because my parents wouldn't approve. That's bullshit. I'm leaving it all out. My mother is going to criticize me for my house not being clean enough and for not wearing enough makeup. What mother complains about her daughter not wearing makeup?!?!?! My brother is going to be freaked out about not having Christmas at "home" and will think I'm living in a life of "sin" because of my and my housemates' drawings. I think my little sister will be okay with everything. She seems to be pretty chill. I know I'll get through it and it's all going to be fine. I'm just tired... so very tired... even though I've been sleeping too much.
Why do all the men that I've been involved with live in Texas? It's very strange. There's my first kiss who is now dating one of my best friends, my first love who I am still very much in love with, the guy I dated last quarter that I just broke up with, and my newest interest, who is one of the strangest people I have ever met. I'm getting a little freaked out here. Maybe I'll end up in Texas eventually... preferably with Dan Hernandez. Why can't I just have him? We want to be together, but he's just not willing to try to work out a long distance relationship. I agree that it's ridiculously difficult to carry on a relationship in which you only see each other once every four months or so, but it's better than dating a guy who lives near you and doesn't have the time to see you. That just hurts. You can always make time. I worked as a full time student and still found time for friends and sleep and got fantastic grades. I know my new interest will have time for me, but I don't think I really want a relationship with him. So... I'm finally at a point in my life where men want me, and it all sucks. Seriously. At least I didn't have to put up with any of this in high school. High school romance is pointless and stupid. I hate seeing such young kids getting into what they think are "serious" relationships and then getting hurt or pregnant or something ridiculous like that. Oh yeah, I have a high school stalker. It's actually quite funny. He's some random 16-year old kid who accidentally called my number once and I was nice to him, so he just keeps calling me. I've told him to stop several times, but now he just calls from different numbers. He just called me three times.
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| I had quite a lovely weekend.
So, there's this boy. He's cute, funny, smart, talented, a fabulous cook, and one of the nicest guys I've ever met. He also just happens to think I'm wonderful. I think this is the beginning of something fabulous. I'm going to take it slow to find out.
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| why do I still have a xanga?
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| I'm officially moved into my awesome townhouse. I know lots of people that will be here for the summer, so I won't be bored at all and I will hopefully have a job really really soon. My butt hurts a lot from riding a bike around town. It's been like 9 years since the last time I rode a bike. | | |
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